^^

she today find me first^^
i feel happy that she find me^^

hehe^
well

i just told her that
i've giving her abit secure and tell her
how stupid i am~

she din't say anything back to me about that

but i kinda feel her answer is
that~

i am stupid~~~

well girl~~

i am stupid~~
stupid for you only~~

for you~~
i leave behine every thing~

just only for you~~~

you said you want time to recover from your pain~~

i give you time~~
and i will take my time~~

to built that confidence for chasing you~~
i will never give up~~

never will~~~

until you break my bones and make fall again~~

and that's when i really leave you and
be your friend~

i hope that you will see this blog~~~
i really hope it will become true~~

nothing special

this few days~~~
i sometime feel sad~~
some time sad~~
don't know why~~
is this what they call emo?

i don't know~
just feel very annoyed~

job stress?
impossible~~
i don't even have a job~~

studies?
maybe~~~~~


but what is it actually?



i really want to know~~

hmm~~

The time now is 00.32
which is Wedness day~~

2 days already~
i've been go and back from funeral parlour
because my uncle had pass away on monday morning~~
i dint went to class that day~~

i ask my friend to help to tell my lecturer~
for not attending class that day~

i am going to ask for another holiday for tomorrow
later i am going to take the form from my collage's admins


that day~~~
the first person i want to share it was "she"

i even called her wake up that day~~
i think she is mad for waking her her so early~

feel bad about it~

sorry girl~~
i just wanted you to gain back that confidence~
if i may~~


i'll be keep waiting for her~~

no matter how much it cost~

this few days....
i just want her to be my side...
no other people~~

just only her~~

only you girl~