birthday~~~

this year's birthday
its not like what should a birthday party should be

this year's party
just a simple friends gather around
at a cafe shop
chit-chatting
drinks
cakes


its not that glamorous
its not like i never have party before

all looks so simple
but in my eyes and heart


these friends is worth to keep

Christ
Christy
Ken
Jack Ya Zhe
Wei Chen
Lily Xiao Mei
Sherly Xiao Yee
Charmaine
Tony
Sharon
Brian Gan
Charlotte
Catherine Sing Sing
Alvin Yap
Moses Yee









the last is


Xiao Ching
the one i like








Thanks for you guys
you all made my day happy~~

Xiao Ching~
although you aren't here

i wish you will be~~

Right here by my side~

Love is a temporary madness.

It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.

And when it subsides you have to make a decision.

You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.

Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion.
That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found



that~~



we were one tree and not two

its been a while again~~~
march is going soon
and april is coming soon~~
a month that i should be happy...


i hope that she will come say happy birthday to me~~
and i hope she is the first 1 to say so~~
haiz~~

i really hope that its going to come true




class started few months already.....
although this is my last semester study...
fell like wanna let pass by fast...
but then again~
i want the time to go slow....




feeling inside me i can't say....
happy?
sad?
anger?
i don't know~
i really don't know


i just myself very useless

another useless crap that you can see through out the streets~~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qIt6KCwlFPw

^^

she today find me first^^
i feel happy that she find me^^

hehe^
well

i just told her that
i've giving her abit secure and tell her
how stupid i am~

she din't say anything back to me about that

but i kinda feel her answer is
that~

i am stupid~~~

well girl~~

i am stupid~~
stupid for you only~~

for you~~
i leave behine every thing~

just only for you~~~

you said you want time to recover from your pain~~

i give you time~~
and i will take my time~~

to built that confidence for chasing you~~
i will never give up~~

never will~~~

until you break my bones and make fall again~~

and that's when i really leave you and
be your friend~

i hope that you will see this blog~~~
i really hope it will become true~~

nothing special

this few days~~~
i sometime feel sad~~
some time sad~~
don't know why~~
is this what they call emo?

i don't know~
just feel very annoyed~

job stress?
impossible~~
i don't even have a job~~

studies?
maybe~~~~~


but what is it actually?



i really want to know~~

hmm~~

The time now is 00.32
which is Wedness day~~

2 days already~
i've been go and back from funeral parlour
because my uncle had pass away on monday morning~~
i dint went to class that day~~

i ask my friend to help to tell my lecturer~
for not attending class that day~

i am going to ask for another holiday for tomorrow
later i am going to take the form from my collage's admins


that day~~~
the first person i want to share it was "she"

i even called her wake up that day~~
i think she is mad for waking her her so early~

feel bad about it~

sorry girl~~
i just wanted you to gain back that confidence~
if i may~~


i'll be keep waiting for her~~

no matter how much it cost~

this few days....
i just want her to be my side...
no other people~~

just only her~~

only you girl~

well~~

its her i've been thinking lately~
i jst feel her around~~
eventhought she is not in kk~~
but i can feel her presents every where~~

maybe is because i promise her to bring her to some of that places~~
then i feel the felling she is there~

last few days~~
she finally keep a sentence from me~
"i will wait until you are in the mood of loving"

i don't care how long it takes~~
i don't care any obstacle is in front of me...
i will fight with the time~~
i will tackle down the obstacle~~~

where there is a will , there is a way~~
i wish i don't break this relationship again~~~

my heart will go on for you~~~
and i don't wanna lose a thing from you~~
with a pure heart~~
no black lies~

pure white with sincere~~~
word with fresh shed blood with promise attach~~

i won't spill my blood for other girls~~~
but only for you~~~~


my love~