hmmmm

hmm...
its been a while since the last time i post a blog here~
well...
this blog mainly is just about my past few days and weeks~~~
ntg special actually
was happy that i get the study japanese this semester....
these few days~~
i've been thinkin
why most of the girls that i know~~
dont really wanna care about me?
is it because of my look?
or is it because i dont have the money?
looks and money is just materials.....
what is important.....
is that how i treat a person~~~

its my b'day.......

my b'day jst past 2 days ago.....
at first i was happy about it.....
but when i think that none of my friends would try to help me celebrate b'day....
i went to sad mood....
haiz....
friday......
9/04/10.....
the call me out for a movie....
and i said "sure,no prob"
got dress.....
and went out.....
after the movies....
my friends say got frenz cafe to have some drinks and chit chat.....
coz about 1 month already dint go out with them.....
since everyone is buzy.....
we sat down,
had our drink and chit chat all night long.....
of all the sudden....
the cafe turn off their lights......
i was like.....
OMG~~~~!!
i was surprised that the shop owner sang a b'day song to me....
and there it was~~~
a cake coming out from the cafe^^
MY GOD.....
my friends planned a surprise party for me......
so happy at that momment.....^^
well....
we had fun that day^^
saturday........(the BIG day)
10/4/10
its my big day^^
although i celebrate like normal b'day
i was happy^^
to see the happy faces my friends put on^^
they happy....
and i am happy^^
i dont wish for presents now.....
i only wish for happiness.....
that 2 days sure make me happy^^
thanx to my secondary friends....
collage friends....
and facebook friends^^
THANX YOU ALL^^
i really apriciate that^^

what to do now~~~~~

what to do now~~~????
if i wanna fix my psp.......
i need to pay at least rm 400++
die for sure><
who can help me?><

haiz......

Normal saturday.....
i never though as i am growing bigger and getting matured......
i still get to "masuk penjara" in my own house><
haiz......
damn boring lah......
wish that some-one can help me escape@@
these few days.....
i am quite emotional.....
ppl make me feel pissed off.....
i will show a very very "dark" face in jst like 5 mins@@
wooot~~~~~
haiz....
any ways.....
do as usual.....
sleep in the afternoon.....
and be an night owl at night^^
XD

it takes.......

"It take 3 second to say i love you....
it takes 3 hours to explain it.....
and a life time to prove it......"

words can be said by mouth.....
word does'nt mean any thing without actions......
if you dare to say that word......
dare to do it......
cause once you said it......
you must do it.......

cherish the people around you

cherish the people around you.....
don't ever let them fail....
they tend to give so much care and time for you......
don't waste it....
"although you are not by my side now,
but i still love you. the time we shared,
the joy we've been through, i wont forget it....
it will stay remain in my sweet memories...
i cherish you with all my life and love....
but in the end...
you treat me nothing like a piece of rubbish...
why did i cherish you for?
the reason why i cherish you......
its because that i love you..
i won't hope that this love will last long...
but i wish it ends with sweet memories...
although you got a boy friend now....
i' ll use my purest heart to bless you and your new boy friend......
wish you always be happy......"

why?

why?
why does this always have to be so?
can't i get a good person for once?
just once...
for only once...
imagine that you always get hurt by the same things.....
the felling that hurts inside......
its feels like the spirit is drifted away....
the feeling will last long inside you.....
making you feel like you are lost in noway......
no direction for you to go......
a land with no place to stay......
feel darkness all the time.........
the loneliness stays with you for a long period.....
till the day you found back your happiness......
you will be old enough to relax and enjoy the rest of your life........